Pretentious....

not a big fan of pretentious people...i volunteer for meals on wheels and today when I got there, there was this girl talking about Target and Wal-Mart and how she loves Target and could just hug Target, and that she would much rather pay more for her toilet paper rather than buy it from Wal-Mart and then the funny thing is that she and the person who she was discussing it with look at me for some input...not sure why they thought that I would agree with them, because I am not the most agreeable person and I had a look on my face that screamed "i don't agree with you and i can't stand hearing you talk"...anyway, at which point I calmly said that I have absolutely nothing against Wal-Mart and that the company is very good at business and that if I am closer to Wal-Mart than I have no problems stopping by and shopping. the girl who was ready to hug Target just said "well, I am very loyal to Target, they donate so much to local charities" to which I just started looking in other direction...seriously, nowadays ALL companies (well, ALL LARGE companies) donate to local charities, especially in the state where they are based out of...To say that Target donates more than Wal-Mart is ridiculous. I am glad that she is loyal to Target, it's good that she is, I guess, but it's silly to say I am willing to overpay for toilet paper only to support Target. If Target were to charge $3.00 more for toilet paper, would she stay loyal? If Target were going through rought times and did not carry toilet paper, will she go with paper towels? Why are people SOOO against the idea of NOT being restricted to just one store.
I personally like Target a lot better than Wal-Mart, I won't drive out of my way to go to Target or Wal-Mart. There is nothing wrong with having a preference, mine is Target, but what is the deal with people who just can't STAN Wal-Mart. I have yet to hear somebody give me a good reason what it is that Wal-Mart has done to them that they are so strongly opinionated, most of them rely on just "they descriminate against women and they pay very poorly to store personell" Well, most store personell at Target (cashiers for example) don't make all that much either. Anyway, it's a stupid arguement as to why they HATE Wal-Mart and would never shop there.
oh and then i did mention to the other lady that I mostly go to Target because I grocery shop there and that same girl again was like "oh, yeah, i totally love them, they have so much really good pre-made stuff, and I love their Archer Farms stuff"...that is when I definitely decided that i am done contributing to the conversation and just walked away...seriously, I don't buy premade stuff, and Archer Farms stuff while is ok, it's no better than other branded stuff, really, and money-wise, well, Archer Farms is not exactly cheap.
Anyway, just needed to vent...like i said, I don't like close-minded and pretentious people....i am usually pretty good at staying away from them, today though I wasn't so lucky...

Leap of Faith....

...marriage that is...having children...being happy...it's a huge leap of faith that some of us aren't so willing to make due to the fact that if something goes wrong then you fall hard and end up heart-broken....it happens all over the world, people getting married and then getting divorced, people having children and the losing them...why do people take such risks? is it because they are brave or is it because they are cowards to spend life alone, because they want to be certain that they can't be hurt by those they willingly let into their lives....bravery or cowardness? which one? I am convinced we are motivated by one or the other in everything we do in our lives, but which one? which one?
and at the end of our lives...whatever choice we have made...is it worth it? and is one of them better than the other? and who is to decide that?

2 years!!!

it's been 2 years since matt and i have gotten married, challenging in some respect, but nonetheless the best years of my life :) We got to travel Europe, find out what it's like to be far apart, what a true reunion actually feels like and many other beautiful and very important lessons and experiences.
FYI, we did not give each other any material presents for our 2 year anniversary, we are trying to move away from that, and it's working quite beautifully, as non-material presents are the best, longer lasting and much more meaningful...Ok, I just got to cook dinner for Matt, which was out of his system within 24 hours, but still....Matt woke up bright and early on Sunday (ok it was a day early of our 2 year anniversary, but he had to fly out of town on Monday, so he decided to present his gift to me one day early, you won't hear me complaining about that) to create a space in our yard where I can plant flowers. I have been wanting to plant flowers for quite some time, but we did not have any place to do so. Years ago, there was a tree removed from our yard, and there was a perfect circle left in the middle of our yard from the tree stump....Matt dug in, put soil in that circle and finished it off with stones around the border, it's truly beautiful. That same day he has made the flower space for me, I have planted some flowers in there (mostly seeds) and they are actually coming through the soil already. I love looking and my growing flowers and watering them and taking care of them, it's quite soothing and very rewarding :) I can actually grow something. And that spot that Matt made for me will be there for years, just like our marriage :) It's so much better than going out to a restaurant and getting a sweater or something....
2 years of being happily married and it's going to get only better from now on. I love my life!!! I love my husband!!!!!